Amazed

Job 13:15
Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him; I will surely defend my ways to his face.

This verse amazes me. Job is talking about God in the midst of heartbreak. He first recognizes that he is experiencing the pain partly because God is not stopping it. God could stop the pain but he wasn't so Job says, "Though he slay me." That is a hard thing to ponder, that God could do something about our painful circumstances and chooses not to. That choice is what is right, but still hard to think.

He goes on to say that despite this he is not going to stop trusting Him. He goes on to say that he is going to speak honestly before God, but not stop trusting him.

I know what he is feeling. There have been times in my life when I yell out to God. I knew that my God could change things and yet they were not changing. I couldn't understand that, and it left me with a choice...to continue to trust Him, or go my own way.

I refer to this verse a lot. I hope that I will never lose hope to trust in Christ even when my heart is screaming, "Dont trust Him, He's the one that won't change things."

Like Job I desire to trust Him, and I still argue with him occasion.